As the title says, life is all about changes. You either choose to move on ahead with it or stay behind and let it define your life. I have been reading lots of posts in facebook and blogs of people I know, it is a great way to keep up with those that I knew from school and the new friends I have made over the last several years. I have learned things about some people that I never knew, and have gotten comments from those who were surprised about things in my life (especially my childhood). It is a shame that as kids in school we are so involved in our own lives that we never see that someone else is really struggling just to make through each day. I know from experience, that you put up a shield and a big front and pretend, hoping that no one really sees the real you. Mainly because you would be embarrassed if anyone knew how your life at home really was. I have gotten some really kind words from people I went to school with that really bless me. I wish I could have been a different person all those years, but the way you are raised defines you during those vulnerable years and I can't change that now. I am a different person today, probably because of that even though I still struggle with things and don't always handle them the way my family wants me too, but I have the most wonderful husband & kids that love me unconditionally as do I them. Wayne & I have raised 3 of the most wonderful, loving, kind Christian kids that I am extremely proud & thankful for. God has blessed us a lot during the last 31 1/2 years of marriage, and I have a lot to be thankful for. More than anything I am thankful for a boy that stood by me, protected me and loved me through all my terrible teenage years and still loves me and protects me every day of my life. He is the love of my life, my soul mate, my husband.
I am facing a big birthday in a few weeks, and as usual I don't handle birthdays well at all. I actually plan on heading out of town with Wayne and try to forget that I am going to be "old". I know that won't happen, but I am going to give it a big try...lol... Really I hope that I can handle growing older with more grace than I have handled it so far. I let each year bother me a little worse than the year before. If anyone got me a black balloon or anything making a big issue out of being older, then I just cry..........I know it is stupid, but I am old enough to be stupid and irrational if I want to. I have earned the right to be however I want on my birthday. Okay, I am already feeling sorry for my self and my birthday hasn't even got here yet.....but I will still have fun on my trip, oh and even though I don't like birthday's I still want lots of gifts...hint hint!!!
Oh my, sorry about rambling so much, some days I just want to let this junk out and get rid of it....lol.... Honestly I do have the most wonderful life now and am very happy. Maybe I need to go get a job so I won't sit here and think of silly things to write about....HeeHee! Hope everyone is looking forward to Spring...I am!
Still missing PeeWee!
2 comments:
I don't have much to comment except to say, I love you! I think getting older is scary, & it scares me for my parents & grandparents to get older, but it is a good thing to have another year! I guess we should be thankful for each day & each year that we are healthy & have our loved ones in our lives!
And, please don't get a job, lol! I need you to babysit every now & then, lol!! :)
Ah Joann you have matured beautifully. Birthdays are just another day of the year so don't let them throw you. I am happy for every one I have because the altenative stinks(LOL) I started backwards when I hit 50. now I am 41. (aiming for those teenage years again) Boy am I looking forward to spring too. It cannot come soon enough. Love ya Cheryl
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